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I want to throw up. I feel completely used, humiliated and helpless in a situation that I cant seem to control. How do u make someone come back to you when they dont seem to care about u anymore? u have no value to them. They took what was needed and they just dropped u. It happened so quick that i dont even know what was going on. Everything just stopped. So subtle. What is my worth now? For a time, he made me feel that I was okay. He was a confirmation that I existed and Im part of this world. He held me like there was no tomorrows. Now that hes gone, what am I suppose to do? How do I fill up the time that we were suppose to spend together? Time passes so slow, and I feel so empty. I want to cry so bad, but I cant. I want to scream but nothing comes out. What now?
posted by snowmoon85 @ 2:18 AM
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i hate to break it to you... this may seem to be a kick like when youre already down but im sure you'll realize something from it...
you were a part of his world but he never made you his world and neither did you make him yours. just think about it dude... in those times that you laugh, that you smile and you joke around was he there? it may seem more that hes around on solitary nights but really he didnt fill up the empitness you felt. hes there physically but i would always think he never gave you more than an embrace... he never embraced who you are. you cant cry and you cant scream because he never filled you up inside (okay there is no sexual connotation in here to all the readers out there ayt?) that there is nothing more to give out. you deserve better. way better. "babe" just doesnt count it nowadays... its actions along with words that matter.
Oh no. I'm sorry this had to happen to you. I can't guarantee to make you feel better but I would certainly try. I certainly can't fill in someone else's shoes but I can be there for you for most of the things. We can walk around the city, do some shopping and basically I will spend all your time. I can't wait for you to come back to NYC! But in the mean time, I hope you feel better.
Also, you are NEVER used goods. You are my one and special Queenie dearest! ^_^
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