Tired

I'm so tired and exhausted. If only I have real issues in my life to be tired about. Only I dont. I wake up each day feeling tired and angry at myself, the people around me and this fucking ugly world. Nothing is pretty anymore. Everything smells old and feels moldy. I walk around the streets hoping that someone can come around and hit me so that I can feel. I'm so tired of feeling sorry for myself. I wish it would just stop. Whats the point of having people ask about me when I dont even know what to say? im angry because my life is so fucking mundane? Thats pathetic. But then again Im pathetic. Im just a fucking whiner and a fake. I pretend that everything is ok when everything is not. I pretend that Im happy for people when Im not. I pretend to be sad for others when I dont give a fuck. There u go, i said it. I hope everyone reads this. EVERYONE. So that they know not everybody in this world is happy and jolly.