Whats right

So a friend asked me today, "would you rather do the right thing or would you rather do what you want?". I paused for a very long time, and my answer is "I try to do whats right so that I can get what I want." But the truth is, life doesnt work that way. Given the current situation, doing what is right have once again screwed me over. I lost the bet and it hurts. Another painful reminder that I dont have a right to really ask for anything.

And so I stepped back and looked again to see if what I did was really appropriate. I dont know. I just want to do whats right so that everything looks clearer. No more mugginess, no confusing things, no stress, and lastly no pain. But right now, all I feel is pain. Hopefully, things will get better from here on. You know when they say, "what doesnt kill us would only make us stronger." I dont believe that. I think the scars that we carry would harden us and change us to the point that we can't feel. Maybe its a good thing. It would certainly make life a lot easier for me.